Sunday, March 20, 2011

Life is hard

Life is a hard thing. I was at a meeting today and got hugs from some great colleagues and friends! I describe how things were in my life currently as finally having the top of my head starting to poke back up from under the water. I went on to say how I looked forward to my eyes finally surfacing so I could get some vision back and then finally my nose to start breathing again.

Between school, filling in a church and now my husband on midnights for a few weeks, I am tired. It actually all started when my dad got really sick in January. He spent a month in the hospital and the doctors tell us we was dying when he arrived and they are amazed he pulled through! Praise God! As we study Creation and the Triune God in systematic theology, I am more sensitive to the places and situations that God reveals himself to us. Really if you pay attention to what is going on around you, God is everywhere! I believe these are the places that we can and do see God face to face here on earth!

And the Trinity... what an idea to believe that the Trinity is in us and we in the Trinity!! What do you think? I think it is a beautiful image! We can never be like the Trinity, but to be in such close and intimate relationship with the Trinity, it makes sense that we dwell within each other. To read more about that idea/concept/theology read Kathryn Tanner Christ the Key.

Life is hard... so much brokenness, darkness, sadness it makes you wonder about hope... And then you are reminded about our Creator God, who created us in His image and called his creation very good. Our hope lies in Christ who died and was buried and on the third day rose again. Our hope hangs on the cross. Our hope comes in the arms of Christ who carries us through the brokenness, the darkness and sadness. He carries us back into the light.


Sunday, March 13, 2011

Ash Wednesday sermon ~ unpack your bags it is Lent...

Grace and peace to you my brothers and sisters in Christ. Grace and peace to you.

A sign that winter has over stayed its welcome might be when my five year old starts looking at pictures that show sunny skies and green grass and says “mommy I want it to be that day again” I long for those days as well. I dream about packing my bag and jumping on the next plane to somewhere warm and sunny. How about you?

When is the last time you had your bags packed and were off for a weekend gateway? A trip with the family? A trip for your self? For some of us it wasn’t too long ago and for others of us, we are still waiting.

We all know there are many kinds of trips and journeys we can embark on. We also have baggage or luggage of many kinds that we can pack for those trips. Does your luggage have a bright pink baggage tag or a flashy red ribbon tied to it to easier identify it? I have a red baggage tag on mine that has Luther’s Rose on it and it says Because all Lutherans have baggage.

Yes we all have baggage. And you know I am not just talking about your favorite suitcase or luggage, but the stuff that keeps up down.

When I return from a trip away, I hate unpacking my bags. I have had my luggage bag sit in the corner of my room for days, because I just can’t bare the thought of unpacking, sorting, tossing, sifting through it. Usually half the things I pack, I never even wear and then there is that one bag that is only for carrying about 6 pairs of shows. Maybe you don’t mind unpacking your bags, but I bet there is something that needs tending (the dishes, the floor, the laundry, the bills..)something needs tending and at the moment it seems like putting it off til later is a good choice. Well your probably right not doing the dishes tonight makes room for 30 minutes of extra tv, another chapter in the great book I am reading. However, in the morning – the dishes are still there and now breakfast has just added to them. You get the picture. We all in one way or another put things off for a later time only to discover more work in the end.

This brings me to my favorite little yellow Old Lutheran tote bag that I have: it says ~ If you think this is cool, you should see my emotional baggage. Or spiritual baggage. We all have baggage. So many times along the journey in life we decide that it would be better to “deal with it” later. The hurtful words we used, or were used on us. We know how to heal the situation, but choose instead to stuff it away. To come back to it later. We are broken, we are hurt, we are grieving, we are in pain, we long for love, we feel alone. Over the years, our bag gets full, we feel heavy hearted. We can not even think about beginning to sort through the baggage. Unfortunately we can’t really tie that hot pink ribbon around it so that it can be easily identified among all the other bags. Instead our stuff just gets stuffed down deeper and deeper. Sometimes to the point that we don’t always even remember it is there.

We may not be packing our suitcases and heading for the airport tonight, but we are here this evening as we begin the journey of Lent. We are reminded that we are dust and to dust we shall return. We come before God and confess our sins known and unknown and then spend the next six weeks reflecting inward on our selves, our actions, our faith .

There is no better time than now to hear the trumpet blown, to hear the sound of the alarms going off… for the time is near. Ash Wednesday we are reminded that to dust we shall return. We are mortals and tonight and the next six weeks, we have the opportunity to sort through our baggage with God by our side so that everything old can be passed away and reconciled in Christ and on Easter morning see that a new creation has come to be.

What kind of bag did you arrive with tonight? Is it just a small purse? Or a little bigger maybe a back pack or how about a carry on. Sometimes, until we actually start unpacking we don’t know what size we carry around. We may think that we don’t actually have baggage until we give ourselves permission to look for it. I have a feelinga mine is the largest suitcase they make and I may have even had to have one of my kids sit on it in order to get it to close all the way.

So here we are Ash Wednesday dragging our oversized bags filled to the brim with unfinished business, sadness, loss, grief, brokenness, hurt, questions, frustration, wonder, loneliness. How do we start? Where do we start? I don’t actually know where or how to start. But I know someone who does. God.

God waits for us each day and wonders if today is the day we will turn to Him so he can carry our heavy bags. God waits each and every day for us to turn to Him so he can reach out his loving hand and help us along the way.

We all come to the Lenten journey with different sized baggage. We all come to Lenten journey with different ways in which we will arrive at the same destination. I am not sure what kind of baggage you are carrying with you tonight. I don’t know what mode of transportation that you are going to take over the next six weeks as we travel towards the cross and ultimately the empty tomb.

There is no better time then Lent to start unpacking your bags. A time to be still, to reflect, to seek forgiveness, to find God in your brokenness. For God is right there in our bags. God is in the middle of our grief, in the middle of our sadness, God is there so we don’t have to feel alone and God is waiting for us to come seeking forgiveness, looking for His love and then leaving with Him our baggage. God will wash our sins away. God will create in us a clean heart. God will for God is

This Lent, let yourself be freed in Christ. Free from sin, free from guilt, free from slavery that is most often slavery to ourselves. Let Christ carry your baggage for you. Over the next 40 days imagine how light our bags could be if we worked at letting go and giving to God just one burden. One situation that has your heart heavy. Give it to God Imagine how free and light you would be. Imagine the room in your heart that could then be filled up as we rejoice and celebrate the ultimate gift God gives each of us. His Son resurrected.

God invites us to Be still and know that He is God.

God invites us to Be still and Know him.

God invites us to be still and know

God invites us to be still

God invites us to be.

God's invitation to be is never ceasing and always open. May you find peace in the stillness Lent offers. May you find freedom in letting go what keeps you bound. May you find God in the midst of your brokenness and be prepared to be made new the day we come to the tomb and discover it is empty.

Amen.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I wonder...

I wonder if I will find any other ways to procrastinate writing the paper due today for Pentateuch.

I wonder if the snow will ever melt this winter?

I wonder if it is a good idea to make this blog public and link it to my facebook page?

I wonder why it is snowing outside AGAIN?

I wonder if it is possible to see God face to face these day? (I think so, do you?)

I wonder a lot these days as I study the Pentateuch, Creation and the Triune God and the Gospel of Luke. Quite a combination that somedays all together make my head spin! Great things to wonder about as I wander through the Old Testament, a Gospel and the Triune God. So much to think about. So much to wonder about and so much to just take in.

I am loving these classes and look forward to one's to come. Most of all though, I belong to a great cohort! A cohort on the same track, in the same classes, wondering the same things, but most of lifting one another up in this journey. The journey that has taken us from so many different careers, experiences, families and places in the world to one place and one journey. It is amazing that God calls each of us to this special place and special journey and I am privileged and honored to be a part of it.

I hope to share stories from seminary. Questions as I wonder. Experiences as I enter contextual ed and other pertinent or not so pertinent thoughts.

Today was camp Sunday at church! It was awesome! A Sunday set aside to celebrate outdoor ministry and more specifically Voyageurs Lutheran Ministry. It was great to have staff leading worship today! For me it was a nice break to sit in the pew and worship! Thanks VLM!!

Well, I need to write a paper of Pentateuch, work on the Ash Wednesday service, clean the house, finish the laundry! But first, I need to stop procrastinating!

~ peace to you